Green things

It's incredibly quiet this morning. Very rare!
Sitting in my Nana chair (a big overstuffed chair that will fit 1 Nana and 2 small grands), and enjoying the view.
This is the best spot in the house and I'm surprised how seldom I take advantage of it.
From here I can see out 3 sets of french doors and the windows of the sun room. It's like a vision in green :)
Green grass, green leaves and even a wildly aqua green house! Birds are in abundance and I never tire of their communication across my yard.
I've started gardening again. I don't actually have a garden but I do have 2 tomato and 2 bell pepper plants ready to go into an old wash bucket :).
I have flowers again.

Before the storm I had a lovely front yard and porch, as well as a huge red hibiscus on one end of the house, pink azaleas on the other and plans for paths and a pond.
That was 3 years, 8 months ago.

After the storm I avoided the front porch and seldom went outside. I let several amazing plants die without ever giving them one drink of water and only scowling at them when I walked by. Unbelievably I even let 10 crepe myrtle trees (a welcome back to your house gift) sit in my frig for months until I finally threw them in the trash.

Time has healed much of the grief, confusion and hopelessness of loss.
I find myself doing, enjoying, loving and giving again.
I see my creativity as I drag old barrels, buckets and tiny blue rubber boots out of my garage.
I'm planting again. Relishing the smell and feel of the dirt. Aware that I too am growing and blooming.

There are memories and treasures I cannot recover, relationships I can never restore. But there are new memories to be made, treasures in unexpected places, relationships that have been found and others that have grown.
I am not alone. I found a wonderful new friend and she is me :).