"I know I'm not a hopeless case"

I got in trouble for my severely negative post this morning!

I got a swift kick in the ass and some tough love.

It seems it's time for me to "put my big girl panties on and deal with it" ")


I told you I was blessed to have people in my life who know all about me and still love me anyway.
In all truthfulness there are only 2 people who know all my secrets (mostly).
They are the best. I love them both more than life itself and I hate to hurt them. But it seems that watching my "slow and painful death" causes them great pain and anxiety.

I am going to try to do better. BUT this has been one of the most difficult and stressful weeks I've had in a long time. I don't have a lot of reserve strength and when the winds of adversity blow, I bend and break so easily.


*So I take back the words and feelings of being un-redeemable and of no value. That isn't truth.


*I take back the title of "Typhoid Mary" of the heart.
That isn't true.


*I take back single handedly destroying every relationship that has come near me.
That isn't true.


*And finally I take back that I have screwed up and over every person who has tried to love me and reach me.
That isn't true. And I'm not screwed. I'm just a "little unwell", alot  :)


So inkeeping with my much improved outlook on me and life in general, I Googled  "Positive Songs"! Good idea Elle!!

Here's one of many that really spoke to me:
"Beautiful Day" U2
http://youtu.be/3V8nu6e8eFY

"The heart is a bloom, shoots up through stony ground
 But there's no room, no space to rent in this town
  You're out of luck and the reason that you had to care
  The traffic is stuck and you're not movin' anywhere
  You thought you'd found a friend to take you out of this place
  Someone you could lend a hand in return for grace


  It's a beautiful day,
  The sky falls and you feel like
  It's a beautiful day,
  Don't let it get away


  You're on the road but you've got no destination
  You're in the mud, in the maze of her imagination
  You love this town even if that doesn't ring true
  You've been all over and it's been all over you


  It's a beautiful day,
  Don't let it get away
  It's a beautiful day,


  Touch me, take me to that other place
  Teach me love, I know I'm not a hopeless case


  See the world in green and blue
  See China right in front of you
  See the canyons broken by cloud
  See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
  See the bedouin fires at night
  See the oil fields at first light
  See the bird with a leaf in her mouth
  After the flood all the colors came out


  It was a beautiful day
  Don't let it get away
  A beautiful day


  Touch me, take me to that other place
  Reach me, I know I'm not a hopeless case


  What you don't have you don't need it now
  What you don't know you can feel it somehow
  What you don't have you don't need it now
  Don't need it now
  It was a beautiful day"


Have a beautiful weekend, I know I plan to!!! elle