Oh boy, I'm so excited! NOT!!
Tomorrow is actually going to be the easy day. The "I go to the hospital at 6 in the morning and let someone put me to sleep" day. A sleep I will well deserve after the torturous routine I get to participate in today. My doctor isn't satisfied with the 2 bottles of sodium, potassium, magnesium sulfate that are going to tear my insides apart. It's not enough that at 1 this afternoon and then again at 1 in the morning I get to participate in a violent cleansing.
No, he also believes it's important to prepare my body by giving it a full bottle of Magnesium Citrate (with a "Pleasing Lemony Flavor") and FOUR Dulcolax laxative tablets beginning at 11 this morning.
I also have strict instructions NOT to have coffee, caffeine or milk today and to follow a clear liquid diet (like bullion cubes-yum!!!!)
I think it is important to note that on page 9 of my 28 page "Patient Instruction Book" there is a small notation that "fluid and electrolyte disturbances can lead to serious adverse events...". Yeah, you think?
I mention this because less than 2 years ago when my husband went through this lovely process no one warned us that every electrolyte in his system would be eliminated and would NEED TO BE REPLACED. His body went into shock and it took an entire year, every specialist imaginable, a trip to one of the nations leading diagnostic hospitals and a very wise "homeopath" to stop the horrible suffering, weight loss and near life loss.
So a word to the wise; drink your Gatorade and add some extra probiotics after you get home from your procedure. Personally I have already started the extra probiotics and vitamin C because of the possible "complications that can occur, including bowl perforation, infection, reactions to medications.....".
I know I sound bitchy about this. I think anyone who is about to have their entire digestive system "disemboweled" and then violated with a probe has every right to be a little bitchy.
At the same time, I would like it noted, that I do think this is important! Very important!!
As my doctor so eloquently put it, "the prep is hell, but nothing like the hell of chemo".
Amen to that.
So my fellow "mid-lifers", when are you going to schedule yours????
Let's leave the "crap" behind and enjoy some music!
I was following a lead from YouTube today. You know the kind: "You Tube suggests..... because you watched....."
I've found some really great stuff that way. Today they were suggesting a very syrupy song from Anne Murray that I will probably share on another day. But, it led me back to the original song I had watched and had forgotten.
It's a good one called "Think of Laura". Although the author of the video called it "Think of Love Laura" and didn't do a great job on the lyrics or on spelling, it is still my favorite version of the song.
It is a good one for today because the song is about a woman who dies young. Isn't that what today's post is all about??? Doing what it takes to live.
Actually that 's what this entire blog is about. Doing what it takes to live AND to live a life worth living!!!
"Think of Love Laura" Christopher Cross
http://youtu.be/02-CvtmRz6M
"Think of Laura, laugh don't cry. I know she'd want it that way"
Last song. A new one to me from Keane. They do "Somewhere Only We Know" which I absolutely love.
Here are some of the lyics from "Everybody's Changing";
"You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can.
You're aching, you're breaking.
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says 'everybody's changing
And I don't know why.'
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name.
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same."
"Everybody's Changing" Keane
http://youtu.be/_WO0PLD9oIM
If I could take a little creative license with this song I would say
"Everything has changed. And I don't feel the same.
So little time!
Try to understand that I'm trying to make some decisions just to stay in the game. I try to wake myself up. But this is my new name.
And everything is changing. And I don't feel the same."
I'll see you on the other side of all this "crap".
Lord knows when I started this blog, so I would have a place to "dump a load of shit", this was not what I had in mind. LOL!!!! Elle
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